I'm back home. My journey consisted of a long winding path these past two weeks. At times I never thought I would find my self at home and feeling good. But that is where I am. My mother is settled into a rehab hospital, she is less confused daily, has accepted she needs to be there and is content with the choice we made. Every one is happy to be home, especially Penny the dog who's barking did not go over well at the condo we were staying in. I am learning the difficult lesson of letting go-to release my mother to the universe, the care of others and have faith that they will do good by her. I am not a parent and can only imagine how difficult this must be to do on a daily basis but also how important it is to do not only for the child but for the self. Both parties must be given space and time to grow and flourish. Again, I want to thank you all for your words of support these past weeks, they have really helped me get through this difficult time.
Well one thing. I don't think there is a way to do it all yourself! you get SO tired emotionally and physically that they just can't do a good job.
ReplyDeleteWhen she has finished with rehab will she be able to go back to her home?
Be kind on yourself, and trust, hopefully you can phone and check in on her?
HUGS and thank you for coming to see my little critters :) and don't forget to spend time in nature, go for a walk, it can help to give you an energy boost!
Lorraine
I am watching my 4 month old granddaughter now 5 days a week and what a job. At times I think that I am not cut out for this either but I feel that I need to help out now while I can. Family is everything to me. I don't think you will ever be disappointed for any of the choices you make as long as you make them with your heart and with the other person's best interest at heart.
ReplyDeleteGlad you are back home. Is that a photo of a place where you walk? Wow!
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear you are home again and feeling good!!! Life is full of difficult lessons - letting go is one of the most difficult.
ReplyDeleteA lovely post full of wisdom and grace. It can be very hard to let go, especially in times of stress. You sound as though you're doing a fine job of adapting to these new circumstances and I hope that they become progressively easier for you and your Mum. Thank you for your visit. Sending you both healing wishes. penny x
ReplyDeleteso glad things are going better, for you and your mom.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure that things will get better for you and your family. I wish you happy days, energy, and a good mood.
ReplyDeletefamily relationships can be so complicated, i hope you find nothing but peace with your desicion. you've made it in love, so it's good.
ReplyDeleteIt's a while since I've been by your blog (I'm still not well) so I missed some of your recent troubles, although I have read back and caught up a little. I see that you have had a difficult time recently and have had to make some gut-wrenching decisions. It's always hard to say if we made the 'right' decision, but usually we did what we though was right at the time. hope everything works out well for your mother, and you of course. Now, enjoy some time back at home x
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking of you and all that you've been through the past couple of weeks. It's so hard to see your parent suffer and deal with loss of daily life skills. You are there for her if not in person in spirit. Paula
ReplyDeleteGoodness, I've sure been absent from blog hopping lately and missed your last couple of posts. I am glad you are back home and that both you and your mom are feeling settled. I am sure she will continue to improve in rehab and regain at least most of her strength. And I hope that you are able to relax and take it easy for while... Much love, Silke
ReplyDeleteThanks for your kind and encouraging words... they mean a lot. It's amazing what a kind word can do to brighten a dark time, isn't it?
ReplyDeletelife sure is a journey isn't it,one step at a time... my thoughts are with you
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