Wednesday, October 5, 2011


I can't say as if things have improved any since I last posted. It is rocky, there are no soft spots. I do have faith that if I do MY best then things will turn out the way they are suppose to. I've given up control, that helps me to sleep at night. Although I sleep a restless sleep waiting for the phone to ring. Watching my mother go from a frisky determined little lady to confused and weakened has been difficult. It is frightening because I'm so afraid these changes are permeant. That I have lost the mother I knew and gained a responsibility that I have no idea of how to deal with. I wish I could take my brain out of my head and wash away the fear an anxiety, it is crowded in there. Thank you for all your words of support.


  1. Oh, that sounds like it would be so hard and worrisome! I can totally understand that your mind and heart are on overload! You are wise to give up control and just take it step by step.

    I have known three elderly women in the same spot last year your mother is in now and all of them recovered their perky selves after rehab had a chance to work and some of the meds could be diminshed. It just took time!

    But no matter what, you are in my thoughts and my heart!! Love, Silke

  2. Lorrie, at this age it takes so much longer for our mothers to mend. She is getting good care and that is the important thing, that perkiness and determination will be a great benefit to her in the months to come.

  3. This is such a tough time and I am sorry that you are having to go through it. I went through similar with my Dad almost a year to the day, and he is now remarkably recovered and still working as a photographer. Then, I would never have believed he could even have walked unaided again, or known who was who. Time can do miraculous things. Sending you healing wishes through the ether. penny

  4. I totally understand your state of mind. I'm so sorry to read about what you have to go through.
    But you handle things with grace and perseverance. Ah, good lady, I'm so sorry for your situation.