The heaviness that hangs over our house is thick. I constantly freeze frame moments in my mind and treasure sounds and feelings. The click of light weight toenails on hardwood floors, the thump of a body pushing through the dog door, the lapping of water out of the bowl. I know Lilys sounds from Pennys and they are so distinct in my mind these days. We took Lily to a specialist this week that gave us further bad news, when I ask about a further check up the vet sounded as if she would be surprised if Lily was with us in the next 2-3 weeks. This is hard for me to fathom as my dog is still barking at cats, interested in her toys and wanting to eat ham. We went for a walk this week to clear out the numbing sadness that has pervaded our spirits, fresh air and sunshine helps temporarily. We are enjoying our family this week-end loving and cherishing the time that has been given to us, hugging and kissing alot. Do the same with your loved ones.
My heart sinks for you... I've been in your shoes... and will be again someday... Please enjoy your time left and try not to let the sadness of the situation overtake that time. Easier said than done, I know... She understands and she wants you happy... All dogs do... I wish I could hug you...
ReplyDeleteI am in tears reading this...a pain i know all too well...i really don't know what to say to you...i know the heavy heart...the deep feelings of sadness....enjoy as best you can these days...know that you are giving Lily the best life...and all the love and hugs and kisses...i had to tell myself over and over..."the circle of life".
ReplyDeletei wish i could be there to give you a hug...
wishing you a peaceful heart, my friend
love,
kary
kary just told me about lily and i am so sorry for you. i lost my chow freddy 5 years ago and it just about did me in. nothing helped until i got my present baby 3 months later. give lily lots of hugs and kisses and be kind to yourself. my thoughts are with you!
ReplyDeleteYou can remind yourself Lily doesn't know, she is the same wonderful dog she's always been, brave in the face of her illness and pain.
ReplyDeleteIt is important to live in the 'now' and not project, you will face that when you have to.
Right now you have her beside you. She will always be in your heart.
xxx
Preserve the happy memories. For all of us, the time will come to cross the rainbow bridge. It is not a dark journey, Lorrie. I know how hard it is to face the empty place they leave in our heart - but it is not really empty. It is still full of love for the one departed, be it person or animal.
ReplyDeleteI hope you can cherish the moments you and lily have left, lorrie...grief will come soon enough (and I also know this is easier said than done, but do try, if you can._
ReplyDeleteOh, Lorrie, how have I missed all of this! My heart goes out to you and your family! I know what you are going through and it is heartbreaking! I hope you can enjoy the good moments with Lily! I remember how hard that is though as the sad thoughts tend to overwhelm! I will be keeping you all in my heart!! Much love, Silke
ReplyDeleteLorrie I am so sorry for this sadness. It is so heartbreaking and I can imagine the pain that you are feeling. I hope the time that you share with your dear lilly will be the most precious time spent with her. Please take care and know that my thoughts and prayers are with you.
ReplyDeleteyou and Lily are in my thoughts today....
ReplyDeleteLorrie, it's good that you can spend time with Lily and be present for her. I'm sure she feels your love and caring. One can never get too much love. Take care of yourself and continue to treasure her sounds, touch and beautiful furry self.
ReplyDeleteOh no! I was reading your posts oldest first and I had not seen this when I left teh last comment. You must be feeling terrible. I know that feeling. In some way you want it to end quickly so you can deal with grief because you can't imagine life without her, but you want to make the most of the moments you have, its a strange time..it makes you question whats real and what isn't.
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