Sunday, December 20, 2009

Ghosts




Seeing all the snow that the east coast has received over the past few days has brought back memories of long ago. I grew up in Michigan where winters were cold, snowy, and long. Living in northern California we have days of rain and grey skies but no magical white snow, you have to travel to the mountains for that. I am homesick for snow. But have to settle grey overcast days of rain and mist. The quiet, misty feel of a foggy walk. No crisp bone chilling cold but soft, damp moist rainy shivers. Walking down a deserted highway with threads of clouds weaving their way between the trees it feels as if you are being followed by ghosts. That if you were to turn around quickly you would catch someone following you. It is unsettling and makes you trip along alittle quicker thankful for the birds who keep you company. I've been thinking of ghosts this Christmas the ghosts of Christmas past-my husband says I spend too much time thinking of that past and things I can do nothing about. I like to think of it as honoring events and people that you have loved. My mother in law died on a dark rainy Christmas day and part of my Christmas will always be spent sitting beside her holding her hand as she took her last breath and left this world. It doesn't stop me from loving the present it only helps me hold it closer and know that every day is precious and should be treasured.

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  1. Dear Lorrie, I was thinking about exactly that yesterday. My sister had read my blog about the Christmas traditions I grew up with which I loved, and commented that not every Christmas was that happy in my family. I told her that I knew that but didn't feel like sharing those details with the whole world. I thought about that afterwards and how I've become very selective in which memories I cultivate. I thought about how I have lived it all, very consciously, very painfully at times, but how I now make choices at which memory I keep alive and give energy to. Most often I choose the happy ones , but I don't forget the other ones either. I think there's nothing wrong with you honoring all the Christmases you've lived! Wishing you a wonderful Christmas with only friendly ghosts around to make you smile! Love, Silke

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  2. wishing you love and peace this Christmas!

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  3. Love your photos, especially that mossy old wood. You know something, I think snow is really overrated! Yes, of course it can be extremely beautiful. But that is only one side of it. Besides, I could really do without the cold.
    Keep the memories that are dear to you, if they are good for you. After all, our past has brought us to where we are today. But do not give too much energy to thoughts that pull you down. Hugs!!!

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  4. Lorrie..loved the post and I too am wishing for snow for Christmas....but it looks like no snow here either....

    Buddy is doing SO GOOD I can' even believe it...I always think the worst...

    Wishing you peace and happiness this Christmas..
    I have had such a good time with our visits this year...and look forward to more in the coming year...

    Merry Christmas, my friend

    Love,
    Kary and Buddy
    xxx

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  5. Oh Lorrie if I could I would send you some snow - it does have a wonderful magic.
    Your pictures and words are always so lovely - you put magic in our lives with them.
    Wishing you Christmas peace with a big hug attached!

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  6. Heres to Helen van wellinmellon .May she be flying with the stars tonight.

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  7. Beautiful photos. Here in the UK we have plenty of snow, sub zero temps and a forecast of 10cm of snow tonight :-(
    Here's wishing you a peaceful Christmas and a joyous and artful new year, Kate

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  8. Merry Christmas dear Lorrie and Penny and Lily...


    So lucky to have met you this year....looking forward to more in 2010...

    I really appreciate all the kind words and support these past few weeks concerning my little Buddy...it means the world to me...

    Merry Christmas, dear friend

    Love,
    kary and Buddy
    xxx

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  9. Wanted to send along some wishes for a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

    Hugs, Gaby

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